DADDY’S
LITTLE GIRL
Whether you pushed me or pulled me, drained me or
fueled me, loved me or left me, hurt me or healed me; You were part of my
growth. No woman is rich enough to buy her past. As much as mistakes are part
of the dues that one pays for a full life, you will find as you look back upon
your life that the moments when you have really lived are the moments when you
have done things in the spirit of love. We either make ourselves miserable, or
we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.
Eight Years back; I was still living in the era of ‘daddy’s
world’. I can’t refute the fact that I am still a daddy’s girl, but by then I
had my way and got everything I wanted. My mind was set and much more focused in
a very spoilt approach. I had power, I felt the potency in life and everything
fell in its place without caring how, when or who got hurt in the process. It
was just all about me; my way or the highway. Daddy has always taught me to be
a sensible woman; independent soul, hardworking, honest, kind etc name them
all. I used all his teachings to bring the aggressive side of me in a not so
friendly way and I got away with all, big times. Then everything changed within
a short period of time; hurt, disappointments, broken spirit, in capabilities,
rejection, critical changes, stress, suicide attempts, depression and it went
on and on constantly. This was the most tragic period of my life, a session
where I knew nobody can lift me out from this dungeon pit other than myself. No
amount of road-trips, alcohol, tears, self inflicting pain, anger, depression,
isolation could ever pull me out from the pit. Well, almost two years of
pulling out myself and I finally did it. Got back to daddy’s basic teachings
only this time around abiding by them in a friendly way. Accepting the woman I
became through my tribulations and knowing that I can never change the
consequences, made me love all of my mistakes, and all of my fears. They are
the very things that propel me forward, keeping it interesting, and most
importantly ~ connecting me to life.
A real decision is measured by the fact that you’ve
taken a new action and when you love life, it will love you back. I knew I
wanted my life to be a magnificent story, so I begun by realizing that am the
author and every day I have the opportunity to write a new page. Our feelings
and actions are conditioned by our daily recurring thoughts, coming from our
beliefs. To relieve ourselves from the chattering of our minds, take a deep
breath and enjoy the present moment where life exist. When life’s strong winds
come blowing, bend with them and let go. By bending, you will become stronger
in new places. By letting go, you will be making room for the new and the
better. Am still daddy’s little girl who knows for a fact that true strength is
keeping everything together when everyone expects you to fall apart.
